But I know it’s nothing to you

And while I ponder and dismantle

You cuddle up, cozy in yourself

Like I want to be.

 

The other me is confident

But she is dull now

She lives in your attention

She thrives on your words.

 

I have silenced you both

Tired of being lost in nothing

Making it my everything

Making her.

 

Hopeful and vibrant

She is all that makes me sick

Her giddiness infects me

My judgement crazed.

 

I come into your attention

Like a dog’s tail, wagging

Blindly devoted and

Always disappointed.