But I know it’s nothing to you
And while I ponder and dismantle
You cuddle up, cozy in yourself
Like I want to be.
The other me is confident
But she is dull now
She lives in your attention
She thrives on your words.
I have silenced you both
Tired of being lost in nothing
Making it my everything
Making her.
Hopeful and vibrant
She is all that makes me sick
Her giddiness infects me
My judgement crazed.
I come into your attention
Like a dog’s tail, wagging
Blindly devoted and
Always disappointed.